Day 1 for more than one reason

Alright. So she arrived. Aunt Flo that is... As usual on the exact day I was ready for her. Funny isn't it that I can calculate exactly when she will arrive, have my cycle down to a science, but can't produce the desired outcome. Hm....

It's frustrating to not be able to make my body do something I want it to. Especially when anything else I want my body to do, can be done. Lose 30 pounds~ put your mind to it, eat better, exercise. Learn more~ go back to school get a degree. Run a 5k~ train for 4 weeks and done. Get pregnant~ Mate like rabbits for years unprotected and nothing.

I do have to say though, this is the first time in years that Aunt Flo's arrival is not accompanied by a flood of emotional tears and anger. I think it's because we finally have a plan, and now I will get to start taking all the fun tests our RE talked about. We can move forward and at this point, where we have been standing for the last 2 years has become pretty stagnant. I have called RE's office and they are calling me back with the schedule of events for all my testing. Waiting....

So here's to CD1!!! First time in years I could even be happy about it. Today I have lots of reasons to be happy/ optimistic.

1. Starting Testing
2. She still arrives on time.(Aunt Flo that is)
3. Faster testing gets done, faster IUI happens and faster I become the equivalent of an oven.
4. It reaffirms we have made the right decision to seek help for our challenges.

I am happy today.