Beta beta whose got my beta?

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What a WEEK! I cannot believe the excitement and stress I have felt this week. So let me recap. Monday morning I got my BFP. I retested in the afternoon and finally called RE. I was able to get in for my first beta draw Monday afternoon. I didn't get the results back until Tuesday at 3:00pm! I have decided that this is the time my RE's office decides to return phone calls. I was so happy that the number seemed strong to me and everything I had read.

Then came wednesday. I waited patiently until 10:30 to go to the lab. My insurance pays 100% if I use a Labcorp lab for any/all labwork. The lab takes the blood and I beg the woman at the counter to see if they can get the test completed and results sent to docs asap. She tells me standard waiting time is 2-3 days! I said look lady the first test I had back within 1 day. Took test monday had results tuesday! She said oh ok well then it will take that long. Be@tch! Whatever fine! So I waited all day yesterday. I waited all day today. I am trying to learn patiece because my hubby says I have none. Also I didn't want to be a PITA to my docs office.

I made the decision that I would call if I had not heard from the docs office by 3:30. Nurse got on the phone and said we still don't have your results, I'll call the lab. Sure enough the lab spelled my name incorrectly and that's why I didn't get my result until now! My number was 211.

I scheduled my u/s for 12/28 to confirm sac placement and how many are in there. I can't tell you what a relief it is to have that number. Not sure why I put so much stock in it, but it makes me feel like this pg may be different. Not sure why, but that's how I feel.

Now I just need to make it through the holidays with as few people as possible finding out. Dh and I are really trying to keep this under wraps until were in a safe zone- so to speak! For now I am going to tell people we are still working on it, when they ask how things are going and if we have any news.

Proof Positive

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The title really should say it all! I woke up this morning and POAS and whalla~ two lines!!!!! AAAAAAAaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! I couldn't believe that it was real. I had to go facilitate a training class this morning when all I really wanted to do was spend the morning POASing. The line this morning was so faint, but definitely there. Its not like I needed to squint to see it, but it was faint. I started to get nervous that maybe it was a false positive. It's been so long since we have been trying that I can't believe after 1 IUI we get a positive result.

I am more scared now than I was before I took the test. Please let this one be real (previous pg was a blighted ovum). Please let it be viable and become the baby I have been dreaming about for so long.

After I got home from my training class I decided that I needed some more proof that I was in fact becoming a human oven, and ran off to T@rget. I picked up a digital test since the one I used this morning was just lines. I came home and relaxed for 20 minutes thinking, "Need to pee, need to pee, need to pee" FINALLY! I was ready to go and that beautiful PREGNANT appeared within 45 seconds. No waiting 3 minutes for me!!!! I can't believe it again. I cried this time when that wonderful word stared silently back at me.

I have called the doc and waiting for a call back to schedule my beta test. DH is very excited too, although he does not show his emotions quite like I do. Now I will need to find a way to not tell anyone for weeks!!! Not sure how I am going to be able to do that!

Patience is a Virtue

Tomorrow is it. Tomorrow morning I will not hit the snooze button on my alarm clock. I will not lay there and think 5 more minutes. I will not groggily get out of bed and make my way to the bathroom. Tomorrow I will be popping my eyes wide open and nervously run to the bathroom for the first HPT attempt. I will pee on that stick and sit there and wait minutes that will seem like an hour. I will have courage and be brave as I look at that all important window where the second line is going to be (God willing!)!

There is a part of me that is so scared its negative. At least I know that since we did IUI, things happened at the right time and swimmers were where they needed to be at the right moment. All I can do is hope that one made it in and is nestling in for a nice long time. We've done all we can to make this work.

If it's negative I may wait another day since tomorrow is only 12dpiui. I will post again at some point tomorrow to let you all know the outcome.

I Am Not That Woman

Ok so this week I had to go to L.A. for a work conference. It's only an hour and 20 minutes from Phoenix, so the flight is over real fast. I got off the plane and ran to the ladies room for a couple reasons. The obvious first, and then I had been lazy and tired and hadn't applied any makeup before leaving PHX.

My idea of makeup includes coverup and eyeliner with chapstick. Period. As I walk up to the mirror that is for the "Primping" I notice there is a woman who has obviously prepared for the long haul at this station! Her bag is spewed about and she is fluffing hair, turning to check her relfection, and toucing up makeup. It took me about 3 minutes to apply my cover up, eyeliner, and chapstick after digging in my bag. She was no where near complete with her barrage of tasks that all go to better asthetics. As I was exiting the restroom I thought to myself I am not that woman. I missed the class in high school where they teach you about spending an hour in the shower and how to make your makeup look like a supermodel. This will never be me! LOL

On IF related business, since it has been a little over a week from my IUI. I am currently 8dpiui and just started having sore bb's. I am not sure if this is related to the progesterone supp. I have been taking, but I would have thought they would have arrived sooner if they were from that. I have been taking the supp. for a week now. It could of course also be AF deciding to send advance warning.

My Money's On the Mexican

This morning was my first IUI. I didn't sleep well last night at all. I am my mothers daughter. When big things are going on my brain just won't stop. Before I knew it, it was 12:30 am and I was still in the living room watching tv. I went to bed and was up at 2:30, 3:35, and 4:30 to feed cats, and got up at 5:15. My thoughts just overwhelm me sometimes. I just kept thinking what if something gets screwed up, what if dh can't do it... etc. My worries were for nothing. (If you can't tell from this and my other blogs I sometimes over-analyze and worry about things that are beyond my control).

DH went in at 8:00 this morning. He was much happier this time putting soldiers in the cup since last time at a clinic it was just a bathroom. No mags, videos, nada. This time much different. He was done and back at home with enough time to make a burrito before we had to go for me.

I have been having light cramping on both sides since last night. We got to docs office a little early and I thought we would have to wait a long time, but they were ready for us. After verifying dh swimmers and going through his results (46 million post wash, with either 56 or 84 motility, we couldn't read the paper clearly) we were ready to go. Undress from the waist down is a phrase I am begining to hear more often than hello! LOL! Doc came back in and within 4 minutes the whole thing was done. I was amazed that it was so fast. I was also amazed about the size of dh sample. The amount they used looked like 1/2 teaspoon. I was more amused by that than the procedure itself!

So after doc finished they had me lay on the table for 10 minutes. DH and I were talking about his sample (I told you I was amused by it!) and of course the comment from the doc about it being a good sample made dh's day. All of a sudden out of his mouth pops," My money's on the mexican." I looked at him like, "Baby your mexican sooo therefore..." and he was like "I know that's why my money's on them." I started laughing and giggling. If nothing else my dh is so good for making me relax.

(TMI) Since this morning I have been at home on the couch and in bed. I have had annoying cramping pretty much all day. I had a small amount of blood on some tp earlier but I am assuming that it just from the doc manipulating the cervix. I will probably work from home tomorrow also just to take it easy.

I start progesterone suppositories (lucky me!) on friday to take for 14 days. Once I get a BFP then I will go back in for confirming blood work. Until then I am in the dreaded 2ww I have been reading about. Hard to believe I am here and going through this!